Saturday, March 15, 2008
I have always hated myself for being at attention!!! Not an attention seeker...But....people around me have been questioning bout my size!!! I noe I am in the plus size constituency....But I just hate it when people would go to me and say...'eh2 Ira.....mangkin buak2!!(omg ira u are getting FATTER!!) some of my close family members will usually tell myself to raise my self esteem...I tried... Tried telling people dat i still look pretty like this...Imagine how hurting wen your own blood agree of wat the hurting words dat is thrown to me!!!! I always try to remain calm but deep down how long must i swollow it?!! Who says I want to be like this? Who say I love all the 'atteintion'? NEVER!!!! I would really appreciate it if I am like othr people out there who has figure to aww!! people who can easily have eyes gazing at them when they are outside...Who wouldnt want that??? Maybe I am just a daughter that was switch during birth cos my mum is small size and my dad is not dat big.. I noe wen people sees me dey might think dat my parentz are also big but after seeing my FAMILY, People will go like..'her family all small size why umaira is 'diffrent'?' Will there be anyone out there to appreciate me????
IHATEMYSELFHAVINGTODEALWITHTHIS!!!!!